I love this song so much that I simply have to post it.

It's too late baby, there's no turning around
So got my hands in my pocket and my head in a cloud
This is how I do
When I think about you
I never thought that you could break me apart
I keep a sinister smile and a hole in my heart
You want to get inside
Then you can get in line
But not this time

Cause you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you're my heroine

I won't try to philosophise
So just take a deep breath and I'll look in your eyes
This is how I feel
And its so surreal
I got a closet filled up to the brim
With the ghosts of my past and their skeletons
And I don't know why
You'd even try
But I won't lie

You caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you're my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin

And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

I feel like a hero and you're my heroine
Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin

(I feel like a hero and you're my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

(I feel like a hero and you are my heroine)
And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
(Do you know that your love is the sweetest sin)
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded
-Boys Like Girls

And after afternoon training, I take back all I said about training getting better. I'd better stop deluding myself before I believe all the bullshit I've been telling myself that often turns out fucking wrong.
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Zack and Cody are cute and I am addicted to the show -.- My cable finally got installed today so I have almost all the channels! I managed to catch the highlights of Aus Open Tennis men's finals! I didn't mind Djo winning but Tsonga didn't deserve to lose that way! ):< He made a lot of stupid errors gyahh.

Training this morning was better than usual. My 200 free is getting better. Swam 2.28 this morning (: Am satisfied although I swim in a three-laps-make-a-hundred-metres pool. It's been a long time since I swam below 2.30. Despite that, I'm still very doubtful about my performance in Nationals in March. I just have this feeling that I won't do well. And I took like one event per day, which sounds crazy but I think I'll survive it.

Five events in total: 50m 100m 200m 400m free + 50m back.

Zomg my first time taking 400m free I am damn nervous about it, because the qualifying time is like exactly my training PB, and I can't guarantee that I'll swim a training PB. Let alone a comp PB. Another problem is, I DON'T KNOW HOW THE HELL TO SWIM A 400M FREE FOR A RACE! I'm not sure if I should start fast, or start slow, or kick moderately from the beginning, or only kick hard at the last 200m, or breathe doubles, or breathe triples, or do underwater fly kicks, or don't do them. ARGH the idea of 400m free freaks me out cause I've never swam anything above 200m before. DAMN LONG DISTANCES.

If I make 28.80 for 50 free or 1.01.80 for 100 free or 2.13.00 for 200 free or 4.40.00 for 400 free, I'll be going for Olympic trials a few weeks after Nationals @ Christchurch. Okay I am starting to put too much pressure on myself. I think I should take a chill pill and just.. Chill.

1.27pm. I feel like watching more tv now. So long :D
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Today was an okay day.

The interview wasn't even an interview, damn it. When my DEAN asked me to follow her into the Board Room, I followed. But once we both were in the room, she didn't close the door. I was like thinking, "Why aren't you closing the door" then she asked, "Isn't your mom coming in with you?"

Like omg an interview allows your parents to follow you in -.- Anyway it was just more like the DEAN looking at my Raffles report file and explaining how the school works and etc.

I have to sit for a math test and an english test on Monday. According to my DEAN, I'll probably be put in the Advanced Math Class (Sounds smart eh?) but I have to go through the test to make sure. English test was supposedly for students whose english is their 2nd language but because I'm new, I have to sit for it too. Ahwell :/

Training today sucked big time again! I'm telling you, the lanes here are freaking small compared to the ones in Singapore pools. I can't even swim Fly properly unless I have the whole lane to myself! Poor Val got a very very bad cut on her wrist because the lane rope cut her.

Looking at training from another angle, I don't feel so lousy afterall. I somehow found out that actually, I'm better than all the girls who are my age in 50 and 100 free. Yay! It makes me feel a whole lot better about myself. Liz just hit 29 for 50 free. She's my age, and she's 3 days older than me hahahaha. She's alot taller than me but she got a huge shock when she found out I've been stuck at 29 since year 2005. LOL. Moral of the story: NEVER LOOK DOWN ON ME.

I've been hearing this song on the radio really often, and its lyrics caught my notice. Love the song. Whoever has it please send it to me through msn cause Multiply shut down!

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes

She said, if we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see
She said, like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together
I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together
Whatever it takes
-Lifehouse

Gonna catch The Longest Yard on tv later at 8.30pm. That means I have half an hour left to do whatever I want on the com. Better make the best outta it. Adios (:
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Yeah, I know I've been posting twice a day for the previous few days. It's to make up for the 2-3 weeks I haven't been posting properly (: And besides, it's not like I have anything better to do.

Just got the news that my interview (for school) is tmr, at 10.20am. I'm feeling a wee bit nervous now. Not exactly sure what they'll ask me. I'm even more uncertain about whether they'd actually UNDERSTAND what I'm saying, given my stupid lovely Singapore accent aka Singlish. Keeping my fingers crossed for the time being :P

Also, for all previous interviews I've went for: OARS, Puan Sri Helene Tan Chin Tuan Scholarship, Lydia Hwang Award, RGS entry and others that I may have forgotten, I realised that I always keep my head down and play with my fingernails and look at my feet. I feel like such an idiot now that I've mentioned it. As such, I shall just take it as this interview was an oral exam and act according to the circumstances like I did for last year's EOY oral. I did quite well for it so I'm praying tmr goes well and I don't seem like a fool in their eyes >.<

Just came back from training feeling kinda pissed off because I was stuck in a lane with all the wrong people again. Annoying, really. At the same time I don't wanna change lanes cause I don't really feel welcome in any other lanes. I guess I'll do with this for the time being.

7.10pm. I shall have dinner and then catch Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire on TV (Yes my telly's finally set up!) and I'll come online and check who's online since I'm not training tmr morning. It's wednesday :D

7.11pm. Better dash before I miss out on anything. Toodles!
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Whoo hoo my shipment just arrived! I gotta start unpacking soon, cause my lovely adidas slippers are inside! <3

Training this morning could have been better but then there were some people in my lane who just didn't let me lead although I was obviously faster than them. Pissed me off big time. Whenever I lapped them, they'd stop at the wall and then when I swam back to the same wall, they'd push off JUST IN FRONT OF ME and then they start blocking me again and then I have to overtake them again but they'd stop and the wall and well you get it, don't you.

My wishlist has been updated last night and I think I will update my profile whenever I can (: I think it looks a lot neater than before and I'm proud of it.

I've got nothing else to post about now so this means UNPACKING! (: Seeya!
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Very confused now cause I don't know what to choose.
NZ/S'pore/NZ/S'pore/NZ/S'pore/NZ/S'pore/NZ/S'pore/NZ/S'pore/NZ/S'pore?

Choose between:

• The easier way to qualify for competitions overseas although I'm not that good.
  
  OR
  
  
• A better opportunity of going to very major meets all over the world but with a very high risk of never being to make it there.

Bloody hell why do I always get stuck in between major decisions like this!?

Quiz to distract myself from everything else.

ABOUT GUYS
Turned ON, OFF or DM (Don't matter):

Is taller than you:
- ON

Is shorter than you:
- OFF

Wears braces:
- DM

Dresses Preppy:
- OFF

Dresses Ghetto:
- OFF

Dresses Gothic:
- OFF

Has blue eyes:
- ON

Has green eyes:
- ON

Has hazel eyes:
- ON

Has brown eyes:
- ON

Drinks alcohol:
- DM if it doesn't affect him

Wears glasses:
- DM but if he looks funny in them then I advice contacts :D

Smokes:
- HELL OFF

Plays sports:
- ON ON ON ON ON ON! :D

Smiles a lot:
- ON (HAHAHA NICKHO O_O)

Calls you just to say Hi:
- DM if he calls at an appropriate time.. I might piss off if he disturbs me in the middle of something :P

Compliments you:
- DM if they're true.

Likes to talk:
- ON cause I like to talk alot too :D

Shy and quiet:
- DM unless it's to the extreme.

Good dancer:
- DM (What good is it even if he can dance?)

Wears jewellery:
- OFF

Smiles when you walk in the room:
- ON

Has brown hair:
- ON

Has Black hair:
- ON

Has blonde hair:
- ON

Has red hair:
- DM (Actually, I can't really imagine a guy with red hair. Hmm..)

Makeup:
- OFF! Guys don't need make up unless they're superstars.

Can make you laugh at any given moment:
- ON especially since I'm a full time pessimist (:

Loyal:
- ON duh!

Laid back:
- DM again, as long as it's not too extreme.

Plays guitar:
- ON! :D

Plays piano:
- ON! :D

Plays drums:
- ON ON ON ON! :D

Sing:
- ON only if he can sing well.

He's buff (muscles):
- ON as long as he doesn't freak me out.

Easily jealous:
- DM but more to the OFF side cause that probably means he's paranoid -.-

Doesn't eat meat:
- OFF! I'll just die, please!

Has a tattoo:
- OFFFFFZZZ.

Has a lip ring:
- OFF. You won't wanna kiss him, seriously.

Tongue ring:
- OFF. Same as above.

Is of a different religion:
- OFF actually. Free thinkers are fine though :D

Puts close friends before you:
- OFF if he abandons me cause of them. Not saying he has to push them away but.. Must balance (:
_____________

1. Honestly what color is your shirt?
- Dark blue. What does it matter anyway!?

2. Honestly, what's on your mind?
- HONESTLY, CAN THIS QUIZ EFFING SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT THE "HONESTLY" THING!?

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
- Doing the quiz, DUH -.-

4. Honestly, have you ever been in love?
- Define love.

5. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
- I won't notice even if I did.

6. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?
- YES.

7. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Amanda yim. That was 109324879317 years ago.

8. Honestly, are you jealous of somebody right now?
- I suppose I am subconsciously.

9. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
- People trying to be funny & immature people.

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
- Actually, nope and proud of it.

11. Honestly, do you use anyone?
- Not that I know of.

12. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
- Mmhmm )':

13. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't like?
- Ahem, people I do not like are not called "friends".

14 . Honestly, do you love someone very much?
- Whaddya think?

15. Honestly, does anyone like you?
- Hahahah, like HONESTLY, how would I know!?

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY

Anger Section
1. What do you do when you're mad?
- Give the cold shoulder, say rude things, throw stuff, loads of crazy things.

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
- Made my parents cry? I think that's the worse.

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- Ooooh interesting I actually answered this question before I saw it! I'M PSYCHIC :D

4. Do you swear when you're mad?
- Is this question for real?! I swear even if I'm NOT mad hahah.

5. When was the last time you really cried?
- Either when I missed my friends alot/ at training when I felt like I didn't belong.

6. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- Yeah, loads.

7. What usually makes you cry?
- There's a wide variety of things.

8 . Are you normally a happy person?
- I don't know? I think I'm abnormally happy :P

9. Does being with your friends makes you happy?
- IF IT DOESN'T, THEN THEY'RE NOT FRIENDS! -.- LAME!
_____________

Q. What do you want for your birthday?
- It differs every year :D But I would like to travel around the world to compete & get good grades in school (:

Q Who will be your next kiss?
- The point about this question is, you're not supposed to know the answer -.-

Q When was the last time you went to the mall ?
- Yesterday..?

Q Are you wearing socks right now?
- Yes it's quite cold here, mind you.

Q When was the last time you went out of states?
- States as in..?

Q Have you been to the movies in the last five days?
- No. RAHHHH.

Q What was the last thing you had to drink?
- Uh, some sports drink.

Q What are you wearing right now?
- Arena shirt + Rg shorts.

Q What was your last purchase?
- I can't remember. Something to do with food. HEH.

Q What was the last food you ate?
- Potato salad :D

Q Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?
- Depends what I was doing and what I want to tell and who I want to tell it to?

Q Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
- Wish I did.

Q Do you have a pet?
- 8 hamsters and 3 cats. HAHAHA who am I kidding. Nope, no pets at all.

Q What was the last sporting?
- This morning zzz -.-

Q If you could be anywhere right now,where would you be?
- Wherever you are (:

Q One thing you hate about yourself?
- I.. Can't.. Choose.. Too many!

Q What's your favorite soup?
- See what I crave on that day.

Q Do you miss anyone?
- I don't miss ANYone.. I miss EVERYone! ):

Q What are your plans for the day?
- Morning training, computer, afternoon training, sleep..

Q Last play you saw?
- Holy smokes I can't remember.

Q Last person you msg'ed?
- Alicia fong I think!

Q Ever go to camp?
- Uh huh.

Q What do you know about your future?
- It's uncertain [:

Q Are you wearing any perfume or ncologne?
- No, give me 10 good reasons why I should be -.-

Q Where are your best friend[s]located ?
- Singapore, mostly!

Q What grade/year are you in?
- Year 10 ROFL.

Q How old do you want to be when you have kids?
- I don't like the idea of having kids.

Q Who was the last person who made you cry?
- Hmmm.

Q Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
- Ears pierced.

Q Who makes you smile?
- People called FRIENDS (:

Q How do you like your soda?
- Fizzy. Heh.

Q Do you like hot sauce?
- I don't eat anything that has to do with "spicy" or "hot" or "chilli".

Q Kissed someone on your top friends? Myspace?
- No??

Q Been arrested?
- No reason why I should have been.

Q Kissed someone you didn't like?
- ...

Q You like someone?
- Yah, my friends.. I like all of them. Love them actually :D

Q Held a snake?
- YES AND PROUD OF IT. Snakes are cool.

Q Been suspended from school?
- Hoho, I should try eh?

Q Been fired from a job?
- Don't have a job to be fired from -.-

Q Sang karaoke?
- Nooo I honestly think it's stupid..

Q Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
- LOTSA TIMES.

Q Laughed until you started crying?
- ALMOST! :D

Q Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
- I can't remember. The last time I experienced snow was roughly 9 years ago.

Q Kissed in the rain?
- ._.

Q Sang in the shower?
- Not out loud.

Q Sat on a roof top?
- Feel like trying!

Q Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
- SO MANY TIMES LUHH.

Q Broken a bone?
- Sadly, NO!

Q Shaved your head?
- LOLS.

Q Played a prank on someone?
- "HELLO AH THIS IS RK HOUSE!"

Q Had/have a gym membership?
- Gym.. I don't know leh. Hahah.

Q Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
- I'm the one who always cries, not them.

Q Shot a gun?
- This reminds me of Joseph. I WISH I HAD SHOT HIM THE OTHER DAY. GRRR.

Q Donated blood?
- Nope.

Shall go youtube-ing now. Post again tonight if I feel like it. Later!
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I want everyone to be online this instance )':
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I can't believe I was so stupiddddd that I missed both men and women's finals of Aus Open Tennis. I feel like slapping myself now gyahh. Guess I'll have to watch the replay another day then.

Out the whole afternoon today. I think I just wasted my whole precious saturday just like that. Damn it. After tmr it's back to training. I hope I survive another 10 times of training. Looking at the bright side, it's sprinters set with Jules again on Monday morning. Yipee :D

Just ended a video conversation with all-time-entertaining aliciatan. She went off for dinner and my com jammed. Is it fate or what -.- I hope she comes back online in time before I go off. Afterall, it's getting pretty late here. I'm freaking tired.

All the stuff are going to be delivered to my house on Tuesday. Yay that means I'll get practically my whole room back (:

Ran outta things to say. Farewell.
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Online now at 2.05pm here but then I forgot that everyone has to be at school for House Practice and CCA Trials today (or so I'm told by Tan Liying who had happened to be online at 8.30am in the morning) so I guess I'll give a short post before I go back to the apartment to watch the finals for Aus Open Tennis and then back here for Msn :D

Firstly, SCHOOL.
Okay, so the uniform thingo didn't turn out toooooo bad, because I was kinda mistaken. There's only TWO uniforms - Summer uniform & Winter uniform. I don't know why but I'm starting to appreciate the RGS uniform now. Heh. I look very very very very extremely weird in my new uniform. My shoes will be BLACK and LEATHER so that's gonna make it weirder. Great -.- I also have to wear high socks. Damn it.

I also filled up that freaking thick with so many rubbish things to fill up stack of forms and there was this STUDENT PROFILE form where I had to write stuff about myself (Wtf!?) Anyway boy, am I glad that I am almost done with all the filling up (: Interview sometime around next week and believe it or not, MATH TEST ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR ME WTF. Gotta start picking up my books again before my eyes pop out at the questions...

I have to take the standard number of subjects (how many that is, I can't remember) but I know I have to take up 2 more additional subjects - Technology & Arts. Technology is compulsory, but I can choose what I want to take up for Arts. There were many many options like German, French, Japanese, Latin, Maori, Business studies, Food technology, Graphics, Core art, Music and a few more (I think). Some subjects like French & Japanese & most of the languages except for German needed Year 9 prerequisites so I couldn't choose them.

Had to put three options because of availability of spaces for each class. Graphics was my first choice. It's some sort of designing class, but different from Textiles which is like home econs. Second choice was FOOD TECHNOLOGY. I have no idea why I ended up with that option so don't ask me. My last choice was the worst. Business studies. Omg I feel like an idiot lah -.- If I end up taking that class I have a really bad feeling that I'll regret it. Pfft.

Secondly, TRAINING.
Training's okay I guess. I swam sprinters set on Friday morning. Yay (: Funny thing is, I swam with only one other girl - Julia, whom everyone calls Jules - and she is a long distance swimmer who swims 1500m and 800m free kind-of-events. I was damn shocked like why the hell was she doing a sprinters set? And she told me her reaction time used to be 1.5seconds hahah D:

It's been pretty quiet down at the pool since almost everyone is at Counties Champs. Training this morning started at 7.15am instead of the usual 6am :D And it was at Lloyd Esmore Park and the pool there is an ordinary 25m indoor heated swimming pool and guess what? It was freaking nice and clean! Whee :D Morning training consisted of only 3 swimmers and lasted 1h 45min, ending at 9am. Was easy cause we were just doing drills (:

Doing breakfast with Horst on Monday (I think) or some other day but I'm pretty sure it'll be next week, cause we have to discuss what I'm going to swim and how I'm going to swim in Nationals in Christchurch because Horst doesn't know what the procedures are for an overseas swimmer like me. So now I don't know what club I'm representing for Nationals. Gyah.

Thirdly, AUS OPEN TENNIS.
OMG OMG OMG. I couldn't believe it. Nadal LOST! Hahah! I'm so happy. He actually lost to an unseeded guy called Tsonga and mind you, Tsonga plays good tennis. So for now the world number two is knocked out during the semi finals!

Last night I watched only the first set of Federer vs Djokovic. Damn this morning I found out that Federer lost! So that means the world number one is knocked out too. That leaves Djokovic and Tsonga for the finals LATER! :D I am so going to watch it. I have a feeling Djokovic will win and I don't mind because I think he deserves to win.

For the women's side, Sharapova thrased Jankovic in straight sets during semifinals and went smoothtly to the finals! :D Hantuchova and Ivanovic, on the other hand, fought through 3 sets and Ivanovic emerged victorious :D After getting owned 6-0 in the first set, she came back and won Hantuchova in the next two sets. Whee. World number 4 and 5 compete in the finals tonight later. Interesting match :D

Okay I don't know what else to post now. My supposedly "short post" has turned into a very long one. Damn, if only I could write essays as easily and efficiently as I post -.- And I realised I just missed The Suite Life of Zack and Cody. URGH ):<

I'll end with a song.

Baby it don't matter
Anyone can see the signs
I caught you looking over
With just a little bit of a smile
You tell him that you love him
While I'm running through your mind
Cause I know that you know
Your cover will blow it's only a matter of time

It's not my style to try and cheat and lie
Why do you sanctify something that already died
I've got something that'll bring you alive

Are you gonna shout it from the rooftops honey
Tell me I'm the only one,
Kick them to the curb and baby don't stop running
Tell me are you gonna come get some

Did you ever ask yourself the question
Where the hell did I go wrong?
Cause you know when it's true
I'll be waiting for you
So tell me how you gonna come, come
Come get some

All those words you're wasting
Trying to tell yourself you need more time
But whats the point in faking
When you know you'll never make it right
You say your head is blurry
But I can't get you out of mine.
I don't mean to cause pressure,
But I just can't let you go on while your living this lie

It's not my style to let this pass me by
Why do you sanctify something that already died
I've got something that'll bring you alive

Are you gonna shout it from the rooftops honey
Tell me I'm the only one,
Kick them to the curb and baby don't stop running
Tell me are you gonna come get some

Did you ever ask yourself the question
Where the hell did I go wrong?
Cos you know when it's true
I'll be waiting for you
So tell me how you gonna come, come
Come get some

Pushed out and waiting
Blacked out and fading
Flaked out and shaking
Just breaking for you
(Breaking for you)
Freaked out and pacing
I just can't go on like this forever

Are you gonna shout it from the rooftops honey
Tell me I'm the only one,
Kick them to the curb and baby don't stop running
Tell me are you gonna come get some

Did you ever ask yourself the question
Where the hell did I go wrong?
Cause you know when it's true
I'll be waiting for you
So tell me how you gonna come, come
Come get some
-Rooster

This post should make up for the many days I haven't posted. Will post again sometime tonight. Till then, stay happy! (: Lol the irony. Hahah. Ciao.
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Short post before I dash off for lunch. Hungryyy.

Came back from registering at my new school: Epsom Girls Grammar School. I registered as Year 10 but I have to go for an interview sometime next week and talk to the DEAN. If the DEAN thinks I should be promoted to a higher grade then I will. Ho ho I better act smart on that day..

Also have a stack of forms to fill, and loads of booklets to read. But for Year 10 I don't have an option booklet. Year 11 you have to choose the subject combination (like Secondary 3 in Singapore) and muahahah my sis has a booklet that is LOADS thicker than mine :D

Bought school uniform too. Omgah damn expensive lah. It was like NZ$690 for my sis's and my set.. And what's worse, it's that we only bought the FALL uniform. So it means we'll have to spend a bomb buying the WINTER uniform and SPRING uniform.. I think :P

Okay gotta dash now I'll post again another day. Goodbye!
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They say time heals all wounds. I say sometimes time never heals. I don't know. I have yet to discover the truth.

Training on Monday morning was good. I thought I was coping well, and even getting better. Hahah.

How wrong I was.

Monday afternoon training was horrendous. And so was Tuesday morning. And Tuesday afternoon. And so will the rest of the week (and more) I think. I don't wanna train. Whatever happened to the days where I oh-so-willingly woke up at 4.30am in the mornings to swim in COE?

Now training here starts at 6am and I don't even wanna wake up though I get extra sleep.

Hopefully this feeling doesn't last long. If not, I might just give up swimming. Besides, I've considered that millions of times. One more time of reconsidering won't hurt, I suppose.

Cut the crap about training. Generally life is better now. At my new apartment by the harbour, there's cable (: So there are like all the nice channels. EPL! Nickelodeon! Disney channel! And best of all, they show AUS OPEN for tennis! :D Whee. Last night I watched the quarter finals between M.Sharapova and J.Henin. Hahah poor Henin got thrashed but that's what happens to me all the time. Guess it just wasn't her day like it isn't mine on every competition day.

Another plus point. SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS! Omg the addiction is back! (Well it never was gone in the first place) Yay :D The episodes are always damn stupid but hey, WHO CARES! As long as it gives you laughter, anything is fine. I also like The Suite Life of Zack and Cody. Hahahah really funny.

The com's not much of use now. I can only blog, check email and check facebook on weekdays since everyone's at school when I'm online. DAMN THE 5 HOUR TIME DIFFERENCE Except for weekends when I can stay online for like forever until 2am in the morning when it's 9pm in Singapore. Okay that just sucks but better than nothing.

Oh yes, one more thing. I'm so sorry people I don't reply tags. My tagboard is flooded whenever I check it.. Goshness D: Nevermind I don't mind it. Keep the tags coming. It's one way of knowing I'm not forgotton! (:

On second thought, I'll just reply some tags here. (Don't wanna flood my tagboard further :P)

Alicia fong
Why is it you're never online when I'm online )': I want my updates of gossip in the classroom and I wanna talk about AUS OPEN with you! Aaah I miss you terribly too! COME ONLINE THIS WEEKEND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! Love you so much <3 Oh yes, I agree with the "if you call this cheem then you won't survive listening to AHEM" part. HAHAHAH :D

Amanda yim
MANDAAAAA. Hahahah hey if I'm online and you wanna talk to me, you gotta contact me first! Cause (for some freaking reason) whenever I double click your name, my com jams and then I gotta restart it. HEH. I LOVE YOU LIKE SHIZZZZ HAHAHAH. LUBXZXZXZ ;D

Claire teng
Omg you know I couldn't believe that Ms Chan was pregnant until you told me!? I can't believe I didn't notice it while I was still at Blackbox! (Must've got my eyes on somethingone else... HAHAHAHA. Okay ignore that. It was stupid -.- Anyway I hope to catcha online again! You're always there for me and I appreciate it so much. LOVE YOU!

Everyone else
THANKS A MILLION (more than that, actually) FOR ALL OF YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT! Miss you all like shizzz. Damn it amandayim you got me hooked onto it -.-

2.12pm now. This must be my longest ever post since my arrival in Auckland. I don't know what else there is to say. I just hope that if anyone of you guys meet me again someday, we won't run out of things to say to each other.

I don't want my friends to turn into total strangers :/

By the way, Dad, I know you might not read this but I just have to let it out somewhere. I hate it when you watch me like a hawk at training. Can't you just GIMME A BREAK?! You're driving me up the wall. And, if you criticize the way ME MYSELF AND I train, YOU CAN GO AND FUCKING TRAIN AT THE POOL YOURSELF.

That felt good.
Goodbye.
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Okay finally got internet now. At my new place in my new room with a new study desk (: It's weird I've had alot of things to say but now that I have my internet, I'm at a loss of words.

National Age Champs is coming up in 6 weeks and 5 days' time or something like that. Going to Christchurch. Cool. Well at least going to a new place won't make me feel that lonely although I don't talk to anyone. Oh well.

I spend my days watching Hongkong DVDs and training. Training is tough here. Harder than what I expected. Bleah. Training makes me feel like a loser. I hate that feeling. Urgh. And yes Cameron, I'm training at Howick Pakuranga. Hahah.

Okay I don't know what else to say now. I will be updating frequently now that I have internet (: Seeya around people.

Lost for words.
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Okay I finally have a stable internet for a day. At dad's friend's place so I'm leeching his internet (:< Here's my long overdue post. Sorry guys I can't be bothered to reply tags. Too many of them.. Sorry. Thank you to everyone who has encouraged me. I'll stay strong, I promise.

5 January 2008, Saturday
Watched 4 movies on the plane – The Game Plan, Heartbreak Kid, Nanny Diaries and Balls of Fury. Game plan was nice (: Enjoyed it a lot. Heartbreak kid wasn’t so bad, just that it was quite sick and the girl is just so disgusting. No wonder it’s R21 ROFL. A lot of people say that Nanny Diaries is nice but why didn’t I find it so? Hmm. It was quite boring and the storyline sucked. No conflict, no resolution. Watched Balls of Fury before but I still kept giggling at the funny scenes. Hee.

I didn’t sleep on the plane at all but I’m not tired at all. Oh well. That was all I did for today. Goodbye.

6 January 2008, Sunday
It is currently 8.52 in the morning in Singapore, but 1.52 in the afternoon here in Auckland. Damn, this sucks. I miss everyone already. The airport is quite nice but personally Singapore’s airport is the best (: Yup. Anyway Auckland is really nice. It’s summer right now but the temperature is quite low compared to Singapore. It’s like 21 degrees Celsius here (: It seems pretty sunny but the wind’s really strong! Very nice weather here.

Scenery is lovely too. All the houses on the hilltops, blooming flowers and bushes and trees, clear blue sky… Damn it’s beautiful! If Singapore were like that too I wouldn’t leave in the first place hahah! Right now I’m here in the apartment that I’m staying at temporarily for about 3 weeks. It’s really cool. You get this remote control to open the gate to the carpark and the carpark goes all the way up to 4th floor! Imagine that. Usually in apartments in Singapore, it’s either basement carpark or open carpark. But it actually goes up to 4th floor here! Hahah! Yeah and we also need keys to operate the lifts. Quite troublesome but yeah cool experience. Building’s really old on the outside but the inside’s really nice. Big and empty LOL. Sorry no pictures because I can’t be bothered to take any… I feel like messaging people now but it’ll be really expensive and my dad will literally murder me if I do. Bleah.

Sorry I haven’t been updating my blog/going online for the past few days. Dad took away the internet at home, I didn’t get the chance to use the computer at the airport, I was on the plane to Auckland, and now I’m at the apartment where there isn’t internet -.- It sucks big time. I want to email you guys but I can’t. Hope you guys are doing fine in Singapore. I’m bored to death here. I think I’ll hit the books or look around the neighbourhood…

Amandayim! I’ve read your letter and it’s freaking awesome! Love your creativity, and of course, you! (: I want to talk to you so I’ll try to catch you online whenever I can! :D Other people too, just too many names. Wish everyone was here with me right now. It would make life a lot better.

7 January 2008, Monday
Auckland is starting to suck big time. No, actually it doesn’t suck at all. Environment is a lot better than Singapore, but I wish I weren’t so lonely… It’s only the 2nd day I’ve spent in Auckland and I feel like dying already. I can’t sms because it’s expensive. I can call but there are some people I can’t talk to over the phone. I think you know who you are. Still don’t have internet. Went to an internet café today at around 9pm but no one I wanted to talk to was online. I’m 5 hours ahead, so when I was online at 9pm it was only 4pm in Singapore. People are training, so how could I talk to them!? Unless I can get internet at 12 midnight or anytime later than that, it doesn’t really matter whether I have internet…

Went to the “Orchard Road” of Auckland today. It is so quiet that I think even Katong is more crowded. Basically all the shops were closed at like 6pm so I didn’t get any chance to go window shopping. Walking in the streets of Auckland in the evening is lovely, just that you’re missing. Everyone is.

8 January 2008, Tuesday
My dad caught me crying at 3am in the morning. I couldn’t sleep. He cried when he saw me crying. He told me to stay strong because he needed all of our support )’:

Must. Stay. Strong.

9 January 2008, Wednesday
House hunting today! (: Was fun, will go and view one more house tmr.

Went to Horst’s club today. The pool was 33 and 1/3m long. Which is one-third of 100m. Weird! Operations are like how it is in COE, so I guess it won’t be so bad. Age group nationals in New Zealand are in March at Christchurch! Oh my goodness. It is around the same time as Singapore National Age Group! And I get to go to Christchurch. I can’t believe it. I am so going to train hard to make it to SEA Age because I want to see everyone in Singapore and that is my first chance. I am going to grab it hard (:<

10 January 2008, Thursday
House hunting again today, and we clinched the deal! Okay not us, but the owners of the house did. We said yes to the house (: It was really nice okay! I’m gonna like life here. I will make sure of that.

I still miss my friends very very much but I don’t think I’ll cry over them anymore. I’m slowly adjusting to life here, and that’s a good sign. I’ve started training at the swim club now (damn, I still can’t spell or pronounce the word right…) and training isn’t that bad, just that I’ve been so unfit that I get tired so easily! Argh! It sucks but the people there are really friendly. My coach’s name is Horst and he’s pretty much like John just that he’s younger and more handsome. Don’t get jealous, John (: There’s an assistant coach too, from China. His name is Sam, I think. He resembles Herbert a lot. But Herbert will always be Herbert so I guess Sam can never replace him. Deep down inside I still miss Herbert loads L

I made new friends today. Okay fine, not really. But I talked a bit to a few of them. There was this guy who was really friendly. He was the one who talked to me the most. He only started talking to me because I whacked his head while plunging. Hey not my fault okay I slipped! :P Gonna train again tmr, hopefully I can know each one of them better.

Will be moving to my new house soon and that means you guys can mail and chat with me online! How fun. Still miss you guys loads. Rented a DVD so I shall watch it now. Goodnight (:

11 January 2008, Friday
- Didn't type anything. Hahah sorry people -

Today
Shopped for whiteware (such as fridges and washing machines) and furniture as well for the house. Swam 7749m because Sir Edmund Hillary died yesterday and Horst wanted us to swim in memory of him. Even the set was designed like we were climbing a mountain. It sucked like hell. Damn it. Must train again on Monday morning. Arghhh..

Okay that's all I don't wanna blog anymore I'm damn tired I'll check out my facebook and talk to people on Msn since I can. Goodbye.
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Hi everyone. At the internet cafe again. Today we went house hunting. It was kinda fun, just that the houses kinda suck ): Hahah.

Checked out the swimming club today. Will begin training tmr (: That should make me feel less lonely. I've been so lonely these few days that I cry myself to sleep. Yeah that's how homesick I am. Last night my dad caught me crying and he cried too. I'm so sad because I feel like I let him down. Afterall, I did agree to move here. He didn't force me...

A fresh new start. Not exactly good. I wish I didn't have to move. I should've stayed in Singapore and studied hard until I could go overseas to study in University. Ohwell. A bit too late to regret it now. Hope I can make new friends at training...

I must stay strong. I miss everyone so so so so much.

Must. Train. Harder. To. Make. It. To. SEA. Age. So. That. Can. See. Everyone. In. Singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye I'll drop by the internet cafe again on Friday. Miss everyone so much I cry just thinking about you guys. Love you muchly (':

Aly loves you, remember that!

Goodbye <3
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Hello everyone I'm posting from Auckland! Sorry I haven't been going online or updating my blog. First of all, my dad took away my internet in Singapore. Then I left for Auckland so yeah no internet..

Then after that there was no internet at the apartment I'm staying at. My dad doesn't wanna install internet yet cause I'll be moving to the permanent house only about 3 weeks later. So yeah. You get what I mean. No internet for 3 weeks. I'm at an internet cafe right now cause I know you guys wanna hear some news from me. Hahah.

Okay now I'll talk a bit bout Auckland. It's really nice and quiet compared to Singapore. Even the "Orchard Road" in Auckland is so quiet. Shops close super early so er.. Yeah it's pretty boring. Weather is lovely though. Clear blue skies and strong breeze (:

Only 15mins left so I'll check my facebook and email cause they're flooded. Sorry I couldn't reply everyone's tags specifically I don't have enough time. Hope everyone's doing okay in Singapore and I MISS ALL OF YOU GUYS!

Talk to you in about 3 weeks' time )':
Miss you guys lots <3

P.S. I'll blog more about my trip to Auckland WHEN I HAVE ENOUGH TIME. Bye guys!
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I can't be bothered to post long posts anymore. I just get bloody depressed and then I start thinking about how I'll be leaving Singapore and more imptly, everyone, in just TWO DAYS.

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to

It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough
But that's gonna change

Cause I'm coming back
To show you that
I'm keeping the promise that i made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around

When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you

(Na na na na na nananananana)
(Na na na na na nananananana)

Yeah, we've had our ups and downs
But we've always worked them out
Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now

Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
Cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right

So i'm coming back
to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count cause I miss you
whenever you're not around

When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
When I'm with you

Whatever it takes
I'm not gonna break the promise I made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count cause I miss you

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count cause I miss you
whenever you're not around

When I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count

When I'm with you
(Na na na na na nananananana)
When I'm with you
(Na na na na na nananananana)
When I'm with you
(na na na na na nananananana)
when i'm with you
(na na na na na nananananana)

(Nananananana)
(Nananananana)
-Faber Drive

And so it's back to the Faber Drive craze. Damn.
OH CRAP I FORGOT I HAVEN'T PACKED YET OMFGZZZZ.

COUNTDOWN! TWOOOOO MORE DAYS.
Someone please teach me how to survive without you.
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HAD THE BEST NEW YEAR YESTERDAY :D

Aaaah yesterday was soooo fun I wish I could have spent alot more days like that!!!!!!!! Sorry for the exaggeration somehow I got affected by the use-caps-and-alot-of-exclamation-marks-syndrome :P

In the morning my dad's friends came over WHILE I WAS STILL SLEEPING PEACEFULLY and had no intention whatsoever to wake up anytime soon. Then my mom came in and she was like, "We have guests over." Initially I just tossed in bed and tried to go back to sleep but after a few seconds I woke up in a shock and I was like, "WHAT THE! We have guests over?!" And yeah I was wide awake after that. Got outta bed and washed up etc etc. I went outside to eat with them for awhile but then I got annoyed with all the small kids (there were like FOUR of them..) so I went back into my room and played with my best friend instead - My computer :D

My parents were outside talking and talking and talking until I received an sms from Aaron, telling me to go to Joseph's house soon (Cause I was invited the day before). Knowing my parents, they would NEVER move an inch and would have continued talking if I hadn't stepped outside and told them loudly that Aaron was rushing me. Hahah immediately after that my parents said sorry and they had another appointment with someone else so we bid goodbye to all the guests and we dashed to Joseph's house.

At first when I reached AARON WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE ALREADY but then we managed to get him to stay for a while longer. Tzeyang was there too. I recall I tried to scare tzeyang while he was eating but before I could even do anything, he said "Hi Alyssa" without even having to look. Then he told me, "I could see your reflection" and pointed at the glass cabinet in front of him GRRRRRRR.

Well anyway after talking for awhile and all, tzeyang and aaron left cause they had to.. For a reason or another. So it was joseph and I left. Of course we didn't stay around all the parents so I followed him to his room. Or at least I only saw the "Boys Only" sign AFTER I entered his room.. Ohwell :P Hahahah. Erm he had trouble transferring his songs so we tried all sorts of solutions and we even called tzeyang up but in the end the person who figured it out was ME :D Hahah I am so happy to be able to help my little bro <3 I'm gonna miss him LOADS when I leave )':

Hahah uhm we kinda ran out of things to do.. So we talked and then we started watching hellcrazy videos on youtube and even though we've both watched ms swan before, we still couldn't stop laughing like crazy when we watched them again!! ROFL. Yeah so we watched that, plus HARD GAY (omg it was so gay I nearly died) and HAPPY TREE FRIENDS. Ohgosh I didn't know it was still in the trend! It was kinda gross to me although I'm supposed to be matured enough to be saying "That's just lame" to those kinda videos. Hahah Joseph and I kept putting our hands over our eyes and saying "EEEEWWW!" frequently HAHA :D See? Siblings are alike hahahah (:

Hahah OH YES there's something I forgot to post. There was one point of time where Joseph told me that he'd tell me a secret and that he could be put in jail for it. I was like D: and I started questioning him. Hahahah I went, "OMG JOSEPH YOU TAKE DRUGS." and he said NOOOOOOOO so ohwell anyway he doesn't.. He took out this toy gun and he threatened to shoot me. He even said that his dad shot his mom in the butt once and she couldn't sleep for a week (WTF!?!?). I didn't believe it until he fired a 'bullet' and the bullet hit the bed pretty hard. He asked me if I wanted to try getting shot, and I OHSOFOOLISHLY said YES (I regret it now). IT WAS EFFING PAINFUL. Got shot at my foot and now there's a tiny little red dot bruise on my toe ):<

LOL at least after that I got my revenge cause I found out Joseph's weakness >:) I tickled him like crazy and he went nuts laughing like a mad idiot for so long and he kept threatening to fire a bullet at me again hahahahah it was so tiring and fun at the same time. We kept on "fighting" and it was quite funny :P

Soon, Joseph's classmate, named Alex if I'm not mistaken, came over and then hahaha he seemed to be a fan of happytreefriends cause he like memorised all the episodes O_O Well, when Joseph showed Alex his toy gun, Alex told us that once he got shot in the butt and he had to sleep face down for TWO WEEKS. HAHAHAHAHAH Joseph and I couldn't stop laughing!!!!!!!! And joseph kept on telling me, "See I told you!!!!!!" Ohman it was crazy lah. I think the room was damn noisy cause we kept on laughing and screaming.

Hahahahahah okay. I know you guys are gonna laugh but whatever. Zhenren came and he looked damn pissed at first and he kept on complaining about how tired he was or something like that. But at the sight of the toygun he seemed to get energetic and all (Wow the gun has magical healing powers too?!) and he tried shooting. Then joseph kinda proudly told him that he shot me and I was forced to show him the bruise.. Hahah. We got kinda crazy using all the pillows and bolsters to whack each other and THOSE TWO BOYS (Alex didn't wanna have a part in it) GANGED UP ON ME! Gyah! Hmph not fair just because I was the only girl doesn't mean you guys can bully me! ):<

Out for dinner and dinner probably lasted for like less than 10 mins cause everyone wanted to get back into joseph's room and play somemore HAHAHAH :P Joseph wanted to shoot me again because I tickled him and he wanted his revenge, but zhenren the peacemaker helped us make a deal. We would play a few rounds of cards and the winner gets to shoot the loser. Joseph and I agreed and we shook hands and made peace (for the time being) but even before we could start playing cards, he shot me THREE TIMES (2 on purpose, 1 by accident!!!!!) and I tickled him God knows how many times. LOL.

Zhenren got quite pissed and he forced us to play cards and so we did. Played blackjack AND WTF I KEPT LOSING! So joseph got to shoot me once more OUCHHHH. That was the last shot of the day but can you believe it! I got shot 5 times! It was damn painful but I lived (: Hahah. Then I suggested a change in games - I couldn't afford to lose anymore - so we played taitee :DDD Alex didn't know how to play so it was between zhenren me and joseph. ZHENREN WON THE FIRST TWO ROUNDS, of which I lost one and joseph lost one. So the loser of the last game would get shot. Well it so happened that I won the last game and JOSEPH LOST HAHAHAHAH!!! :D Pro huh.

Anyway I ohsokindly gave joseph two options: to either get shot by the toygun, or get tickled by me without putting up any resistance whatsoever for 20seconds. HE CHOSE GETTING TICKLED. LMAO it was damn funny cause he couldn't stop laughing and he looked like he was in a lot of pain hahahahahah! :D

After that it was cutting cake for Uncle Collin cause it was his birthday! Back to the room after that hahahah and zhenren and I tried using the com while joseph and alex played xbox. I couldn't log into msn cause joseph's com was damn laggy (worse than mine so imagine that O_O) and in the end zhenren and I sorta just talked while watching them play xbox..? Uh yeah. Then it was 10pm (wow I couldn't believe I was there for 8 hours) and we all went home cause everyone (except me, of course) had school today. Sigh.

I can't wait to see them again on friday! At least I know there's a playground nearby but NO I refuse to let history repeat itself. The last time we all went to the playground.. It was a nightmare for me and joseph. NO WAY NO WAY I am going all out to prevent that from happening again.

I might just cry on friday if I harp on the fact that it's the last time I'll ever see them again in a long time. Crazy, isn't it? I've been seeing them about 10 times a week for like a year and a half. They're probably the people I'm closest to. Even closer than SOME of my classmates. The whole squad of about 30 people. I'm gonna lose more than 30 friends in 3 days. Aah..

I think I will cry on friday )':

COUNTDOWN! THREEEEEE DAYS.
I won't struggle anymore if you would hold me in your arms again.
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First of all, I would like to say

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Yesterday's farewell party was a BLAST! (: It was really fun. Thanks to everyone who turned up, you really made my day. I don't think I'll type much. The pictures will paint the story for you.


^RGS 102 PEOPLE :D


^MGS 6.2 PEOPLE :D




^SHERALYN LOHHH (:


^Hahahaha Alicia Tan


^Sheralyn apparently finds sticks interesting..


^Amandayim :P


^DOG&BONE! Quoted Amandakhoo: Nurul and Rachel stuck in this position for approximately 10 seconds before I asked another number to come out and save them. Hahahahah.


^TABOO! :)






^TAI TEE! :D


^The agar agar Rachelyu made for me!!!!!


^The bottom side of the agar agar :D


^The whole agar agar "cake" had 3 layers :D


^Bottom layer remains (:


^Top layer removed (:


^Middle layer :D It certainly makes it look like it was my birthday :P Broke chopsticks in halves and used them as "candles". ROFL.


^Chopsticks removed.


^I edited this photo :D Click for enlarged.


^PRESENTS O_O


^Eating..


^EATEN.


^Me stefg sheralyn


^Me and stefg


^Aliciatan me amandayim christie :D


^Claireteng and I trying to act bimb.. but didn't work out..


^US NORMAL.


^SWIMMERS! :D (Plus claireteng, an ex-swimmer) In random order: Claireteng Sele me Ani Clairelye Cat Joie Liwen!


^I love this picture! Ani Clairelye Sele :)


^Rachelyu me alicia tan! :D


^Claireteng and stefg


^ME AND GOHGOH!!!!!!!


^Cat me liwen :DDDDD


^Sakeenah me Nurul aka Fluddah! :D


^IVY AMANDAKHOO ME ALICIAFONG LOVE YOU GUYS :D


^Me and LIYING!!!! I'm-watching-you BUDDIES!


^Amandayim claireteng me sele!

HAD THE BEST NEW YEARS EVE YESTERDAY :D
That's all. I love you guys to bitszzz hahahah. I can't bear to leave all of you. PLEASE KEEP IN TOUCH!

Okay now. Gotta rush off for lunch at Joseph's house.. Aaron's rushing me.. LMAO.

BYE!

FOUR MORE DAYS FOUR MORE DAYS FOUR MORE DAYS OMGZZZZ.
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