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Sunday, April 29, 2007

I'm a high school player.
I'm a team player.
I play with my friends and with some of my enemies, but I respect everyone when it comes to my sport.
I know I'm not going to get a multi-million dollar contract to play professionally.
I know I may not ever get my name in the paper.
I play for the love of the game.
For the pride and honour, for the blood, sweat and tears it takes to make the team, to earn the spot, to win the game.
I play because I can.
I play because I know that my life would be empty without the sport I play.
I would have a lack of everything my sport gives me... integrity, courage, talent, fearlessness, pride, strength, stamina, will, and the heart of a champion.
If I didn't play, I would lose a part of me.
I am an athlete.
I'm a girl.
I'm a champion, not because my team always wins, but because when we don't, we learn from our mistakes.
We try to fix them, and most of all, because we have fun.
I have built lifelong friendships and memories because of my being an athlete.
I leave everything on the field or court and continue to push myself.
I am never happy with second place, but I have learned to accept it.
I have learned to get over and through my anger and be the athlete and player I have always dreamed of being.
I don't play for my parents, for my family, for my friends; I don't play for my coach or my teachers or my school.
I play for myself but when I'm playing, I represent them.
It isn't about winning or losing, but I hate to lose.
I won't settle for a tie, and I am not satisfied with 100%
To play, you have to sacrifice everything, your body, your time, your sweat, blood and tears, everything... for your team
I am a player and athlete and a champion, not because I know what it is like to win, but because I know what it is like to lose.
I know what it is like to feel the anger and pain that comes along with "second best".
I have been that girl with tears in her eyes, walking out to receive the second place trophy and clapping as the other team, my opponents, receive the first place one.
I know what it is like to lose, to win, to want to quit, to want to cry, to not want to get up.
I know what it is like to hear the cheers and yells for you.
I know what it is like to feel the pressure of everyone on your shoulders, and I know what it is like to choke under that pressure.
I know what it means to be an athlete, a true player, and that is why I play.

"I AM AN ATHLETE, A CHAMPION, A TRUE PLAYER."
- An Athlete's Pride

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I found a quiz on Claire Teng's blog and I thought that since I had nothing better to do, I might as well do it.

And wow, three posts in a day. Interesting.

1.Ever been given an engagement ring?
Well, I became 13 nine days ago.. What do you think?

2.Last gift you received?
All my birthday presents!

3.Ever dropped a cellphone?
Who hasn't?

4.When's the last time you worked out?
Saturday morning.

5.Things you spend a lot of money on?
Erm. Food and Cds and NOTEBOOKS.

6.Last food you ate?
Yong tau foo! Yum.

7.First thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their gender? xD

8.One favourite song?
Supermassive black hole -- Muse

9.High school you attended?
Raffles ):

10.Cell phone service provider?
M1?

11.Favourite mall?
Uhm. As long there's a cinema and a place to take neos, that'll be it.

12.Longest job you had?
Swimming?

13.Do you own a pair of dice?
Like, yeah. From a board game.

14.Do you prank call people?
I don't have time for wuliao things like this. But I do.

15.Last wedding you attended?
Hmm. My uncle's.

16.First friend you called if you won the lottery?
CATHERINE TSENG! :D

17.Favourite fast food restaurant?
Hmm. This one and that one and this one.

18.Biggest lie you ever heard?
When Herbert told Joseph that Aaron made all the times. Heh.

19.Where's your favourite place to eat with friends?
Ermm, anywhere as long as I'm eating with my friends. Lol.

20.Can you cook?
Yes, but the food I cook is probably not edible.

21.Best kisser?
I can't kiss myself, so how would I know?

22.Last time you cried?
During the Perth meet this year.

23.Most disliked food?
No idea?

24.About yourself?
I'm super negative and and and I am a full time pessimist.

25.Thing you dislike most about yourself?
Look above.

26.Longest shift you worked in your life?
I don't do shifts.

27.Favourite movie?
It's still Confession of Pain 'cos I think the plot's really good.

28.Can you sing?
Of course I can. I'm not mute.

29.One thing you never leave your house without?
Clothing.

30.Last concert you attended?
Phantom of the Opera! :D

31.Last movie you rented?
I don't rent movies.

32.Favourite vacation spot?
Nowhere, actually. Haven't been to a lot of places.

33.Laptop or desktop computer?
Laptop!

34.Favourite comedian?
O_O No idea? Mr bean?

35.Do you smoke?
Well, I cough whenever I walk past a smoker. Tell me if I smoke.

36.Sleep with or without clothes?
Do you sleep with your clothes? Then!?

37.Who sleeps with you every night?
My bed. DUH.

38.Do long distance relationships work?
Yes! I miss Fai. I saw her yesterday. She came to visit from Thailand.

39.Pancakes or french toast?
BOTH :D

40.Do you like coffee?
Erm. No? Prefer coke and lemon tea and apple tea and I think I should stop now.

41.How do you like your eggs?
Cooked.

42.Do you believe in astrology?
What for?

43.Last person you talked to on the phone?
My dad. I told him to fetch me home from tuition.

44.Last person on your missed call list?
Some unknown person. Must have been a wrong number.

45.What was the last text message you received?
Cheryl Lim: Haha. Roar all you like it's MINE!

47.What are you wearing right now?
Shirt and shorts.

48.Pick a lyric:
We are who we were when we could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend.

49.What kind of jelly would you like on your PB & J?
Erm. Invisible jelly.

50.Can you play pool?
Yes, I'm not disabled.

51.Can you swim?
I've swimming for 4 years. Do I have to answer?

52.Favourite ice cream?
CHOCOLATE CHIP! :DD

53.Do you like maps?
No! They make me confused. >:(

54.Tell me a random fact about yourself:
I'm random.

55.Ever attended a theme party?
Yeah. Halloweennnn.

56.What is your favourite season?
Winter! ;D But Autumn's nice too. Maple leaves and that crimson shade. Nice.

57.Last time you laughed at something stupid?
A minute ago at Cat's stupid convo. Hahah. She and the neoprint thing.

58.What time did you wake up this morning?
Aahh.. 9?

59.Best thing about winter?
This thing called snow.

60.Last time a cop gave you a ticket?
Still waiting for that time.

61.Name of your first pet?
I never had a pet.

62.Do you think pirates are cool or overated?
Uh, cool only in movies. Fullstop.

63.What are you doing this weekend?
The weekend's over.

64.What do you want to be?
Rich.

65.Are you on a laptop?
Yup.

66.Are you smiling?
No, I'm Alyssa.

67.Do you miss someone right now?
If I said 'yes', Cat will laugh at me. So, no.

68.If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?
America! :D

69.Are you in high school?
Yeah.

70.Do you have a crush?
Hawhawhaw. ^^

71.What's your favourite name?
Alyssa.

72.What colour is your bathing suit?
Bathing suit?!

73.Does your school start in August?
No, it starts in January.

74.Did you go on a vacation last month?
I wish.

75.Have you ever been on a cruise?
I think so. Can't remember :/

76.Do you have a sister?
Yup.

77.What are you going to do after this survey?
History formative! DD:

Okay I'm finally done. Back to my formative. Byebye.

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I just came up with something to post about.



If you bothered decoding this,
you're just wasting your time (:



Yup. That's all for now (:

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Flowers for Algernon is such a saddd story! )':
Oh no I ran out of things to blog about again.
Better luck next time.

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Saturday, April 28, 2007

Someone please help me resist the temptation to give up.
I'm really desperate.
It seems as if I can't hold on any longer.
I want to let go. I need to let go.


Double-demoralised.


Gosh, why do my posts sound so.. philosophical all the time?
-undaunted?
I hope so.

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Friday, April 27, 2007

I am fucking pissed. Somehow sometimes I don't understand how this world works.

I need to rant and rave like a madman.


PHROARRRRR.


But no, I will not reveal how I feel.
Clues are given, though.

I feel lousy+pathetic+useless+inefficient+incompetent.

That's all I'm going to say.
Figure it out yourself.

Happy thinking.

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

I wish I could take steroids.













It'll make me a little faster and maybe a little less depressed

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

Oh thank God I've finished my philosophy performance task.
Writing a 500 word report on discrimination ain't easy.
I ended up writing approximately 900 words.
Oh wow, good job Alyssa.

Back to training tomorrow, yay!
Finally. After what, 5 days of no swimming.
And gym training.
Yup, I miss gym. Hah, there's gym tomorrow! (:

Okay, erm.
Nothing to post?
Oh goodness me what kind of post is this.
Goodbye.

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

I POSTED ON MY XANGAAAA!

gothe_distance

I'll see you there!
Don't forget to tag!

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Friday, April 20, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! <33

I am officially thirteen from today onwards.
Hooray!

To start out my oh-so-terrific-thirteen,
I would like to
THANK ALL THE DUPER WONDERFULLY SUPERB PEOPLE WHO WISHED ALYSSA A HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

And I shall make use of this time to make some dedications to some people :D

ALICIA TAN
Hey Alicia!
Thanks for always being such a great friend :D
Yup, hope we'll enjoy year 2007 together in school!
P.S. Buffy's weird. Hahah.

RACHEL YU
Hello funny bunny rachel!
Hahah that just came out of my head, no offence.
You make me crazy about jellybeans! :D
Thanks for being such a funny friend!

CHERYL LIM
CHERYLLL.
You doofus who swims so fast.
So unfair >:(
Hahah thanks for always being there for me! <33>AMANDA KHOO
Amanda khoo! :D
You're a really funny friend! Everyday also go high.
WITH LIYING.
Ahahahah..
Rock on! (:

AMANDA YIM
Hahah you smartypants x)
How's life in 113?
MISS YOU ALWAYS! :D

STEPHANIE GLARBO
OMG! HI BESTEST FRIEND!
I suppose you're enjoying yourself in MG? Heheh!
Thanks for even remembering my b'day!
Love you loads!

CLAIRE TENG
Hahah! PREFECT NOMINEE.
Hope you become a prefect!
But don't book people! Ahahahah..
Best friends always!

LIN SIYAN
You musically-inclined person!
And you're much much much taller than me now!
Roar >:( And you rock, girl!
Keep rocking and never ever forget me!
'Cos I'll never ever forget you!

Jm
Hahah! Not sure if I can put your name there.. But yeah!
You're probably the sweetesttttttt guy friend I ever know!
LOL! Hope you'll enjoy 2007!
And come to COE soon! (:

CAROLYN KWOK
Oh you evillll lemon.
Hahah! Can you stop teasing me for once!?
Cos it is so not true!
Ahah, anyway, blackbox is fun!
Isn't it? Hope you continue to excel in studies and CCA!

CATHERINE TSENG
Hellloooo cat! I just love your designs!
You're really talented, you run fast, you swim fast, and
You rock my socks! :D
Thanks for being such a wonderfulll friend yeah?
<33!>LEE JING
Ohgosh I have trouble understanding your letters all the time man!
Hahah I should approach you for help? xP
Yes i should. Thanks for being so funny and making my life not so miserable!
Hope you'll go further in your music! :D

DEBORAH CHUA
Hey there girl!
I owe you a blogskin! xD
Thanks for being such a nice friend!
You were the first friend I made (other than zhekang!) in COE!
You'd better continue to make me laugh during training. Hahah.

CLEMENT TAN
Hi brother! Hahah!
Thanks for wishing me happy birthday,
And you gave me really good advice for PSLE!
Thank you sooo very much!
I'm very sure you will excel in your swimming and studies.
Work hard!

ADELINE WINATA
How can I ever ever forget you!? Gosh.
Thanks for always winning me in swimming..
At least now I have a target. Hehehh >:)
Evil smile. Watch out!
Because Alyssa's gonna catch you soon!

EVERYONE ELSE
Yeah, thanks so much for making my 13th birthday such a happy happy one!
It's such a pity I had to fall sick, but nevertheless,
I will enjoy it to the fullest!
Thanks for all the well wishes,
Every single one does mean a lot to me.
And so you every single one of you!
So even if you do not have a dedication,
Remember that you are special!
With a dedication or not :D
Do live life to the fullest!

Lotsa love,
ALYSSALLFH <33


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Thursday, April 19, 2007

I have something interesting to post about!

TEO ZHEN REN USED TO BE IN DEBATE!

WHEN HE WAS PRIMARY FIVE.

HAHAHAHAH.

And he lost to WONG XINYI'S class!
And he claims that it's because their microphone had some problems..

NEVERMIND, TEO ZHEN REN!
You'll be the winner in my heart (:

Sounds mushy?
NO WAY.

He's just a good/funny/nice friend of mine.

And if you're reading this,

DON'T GET OFFENDED (:
And because you're good/funny/nice,
I KNOW YOU WON'T!

Heehee.

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I AM GOING TO BE THIRTEEN TOMORROW AND I AM SICK.

Haven't been to school for 2 days now )': Boohoohoo. Ain't that just so sad?
Will be skipping the 5 item test for PFT tomorrow.

On tuesday when I went for training, the damned hard set was:

4x300 Pull
1500 Free 1.20 pace
(something here; can't remember)
1500 Free under 1.20 pace
2x300 or something like that.

And I seriously couldn't move at all!
I couldn't even make 1.20 pace! And I totally screwed training up.
I breathed almost every first stroke (and last)
And I didn't do streamlined push off.

Herbert was super mad with me.
So at the end of training, he made me (and Aaron) redo 1500 Free.
Yeah. But we did 800 in the end.

I was coughing throughout training, and I felt super uncomfortable.
I went home, literally collapsed on the sofa, gobbled up my dinner, and felt super tired. I slept real early that night.

The next morning (Wednesday), I woke up at around 5.30 and I felt super sick.
I knew I was sick
I forced myself out of bed (I could barely get up) and took my temperature.
ZOMG 38.0.

I walked out of my room and woke my dad up.
He told me not to go to school and stay home to rest.
He then brought me to see a doctor after sending my sister to school.

At the clinic, my temperature was already 39.0.
The "nurse" kept me isolated in a room because they were scared that I had dengue fever.
And I fell asleep in the room.

After waiting for a super long time, the doctor finally came to see me.
She gave me an MC for three days; and I was not allowed to train until Monday.
I mean, MONDAY!? I would have missed alot of sessions! >:(
The doctor said that if I went to train, I would have difficulty breathing because my throat is infected and my nose is almost totally blocked.

I didn't believe it. I felt okay. I could breathe normally.
Until this morning.
When I woke up, I choked because I couldn't breathe. And whenever I coughed, my throat will feel like it's dying. And I have no appetite at all.

And now I'm here, posting about how I fell sick.
Interesting?

I shall go and do my Philosophy PT now.
Have fun in school, people.

A day late - Anberlin
So let me get this straight
Say now you loved me all along?
What made you hesitate
To tell me with words what you really feel
I can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
I remember so long ago, see i felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
Insignificantly enough we both have significant others

Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
We could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
We could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

But thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
But i must confess you're so much more then i remember
Can't help but entertain these thoughts
Thoughts of us together

We are who we were when
We could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
We could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

My day late friend

So let me get this straight
All these years and you were no where to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you're a day late and my love, she's still renowned
We are who we were when
We could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
We could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who
We are who we were when

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

HELLOLOLOLO!

Once again, I'm finally back to update my blog. Am planning to change skin. Maybe after this post.

This post is dedicated to ONE AND ONLY Jm! :DD

Continued.

08 April 2007
Day two of comp. Had 5 events on that day (not including relay).

Hardly did any PBs. Oh boohoo.
Started out with 200 IM. Swam a 2.50. It wasn't exactly a good way to start the 2nd day of comp.
Then almost immediately after that, I had 50 back. Didn't do a PB, and worst of all, I missed 3rd place by a meagre 0.12secs! It was so saddening.. And i practically broke into tears.

Supposedly had 100 fly after that. I couldn't take it. I was too tired. No PBs, and my feel of the water totally sucked. Couldn't move at all.

I went up to my team manager (Uncle Daniel) and i requested for a withdrawal. And i withdrew from 100 fly. I don't regret it.

After the interval, 200 free was up. First event of the 2nd session. Didn't expect any PB, nor medals. In the end, i swam a 2.23 which was one second away from my PB, so yeah. It didn't turn out too bad.

Then i had a bit of time to rest, for there were some events in between 200 free and 100 free. Yeah then i had 100 free. I knew that i was going to clinch the gold medal, but the question was, could i break my PB?

Well, i didn't. Did 1.04.20. At least it was a low 1.04! And anyway, my PB was 1.03.97. So, i might as well say i did my PB.

Some pics:

The start of 100 free
FIRST! :D
Isobel, me and Liwen!
And it's us again!
Yeah. So that was 100 free.
Then it was my last event for the day, and the meet!
Also the best event.
4x50 IM relay! OMG MY TEAM ROCKED.

Asian team A was made up of:
Backstroke gold medalist: Isobel!
Breaststroke gold medalist: Anissa!
Butterfly gold medalist: Liwen!
Freestyle gold medalist: ME!

There was no way we would lose. And yeah, we clinched the gold medal. And we broke the record by 2secs! Well done us!

Oh yes, in the last post, I forgot to mention that our 4x50 Free relay was made up of the same people (Isobel, me, Liwen and Anissa) and we broke the record by few milliseconds.

4x50 Free relay:
My team's the one in the middle
Shaking hands with the other teams
CHAMPIONS!Champs for IM relay!
YEAH MAN.


And i've reached the end of this post! Will change my skin after this. Look forward to it!
BYEBYE!
And Jm, I'M DONE!

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

HELLOOO.

This post is specially dedicated to my dear friend JM! :D
Yes, I know you're reading this. Heh (:

As promised, here are the photos from the Perth trip! :D

06 April 2007
The APSC team gathered at the airport, and blah blah.. Had breakfast, then we roamed about aimlessly in the airport for a while, then checked in and yeah. We left for perth.

We arrived in perth FIVE whole hours later. OMG. Had a lot of fun in the airplane. Thanks to my sitting partner VANESSA LIM. Hahah. And her sitting partner, zach ong. Lol.

Team gathering at hotel lobbyAnd I'm the one in the white jacket.
A pic that our coach took with me and van at the balcony.

And when we arrived at the hotel, our coaches asked us to try out the pool. But the pool was a play-pool. So we went to play instead.

The girls going crazy at the hotel pool
Me and Bianca the baboon.

Sheryl, Vanessa and ME!Me, Vanessa, Sheryl and Bianca posing.

And then we had dinner (zomg i can't remember where) and yeah i think that was it for the first day.

07 April 2007

Had 3 events : 50 free, 50 fly and 100 back.

Won first for 50 free with a time of 29.73 (PB!)
Then i won 3rd for 50 fly. With PB of 33.17.
Lol.

And then i won 3rd for 100m back.YUP.
And before JM falls asleep. I shall stop here for today.
Will continue next time.

Till then.

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

HAHAHAHAHAH.

Carolyn kwok just kindly updated me about what happened at blackbox today. Because of that stupid prank Teo Lingli played on me, there was this funny convo. And

Ms chan: ZR, why don't you want to date Alyssa? She's damn nice and sweet!
(Racist) Mark: 'Cos she's too tall for him!
Everyone: *Laughs*
ZR: *BLUSH*

OMGOMG. Hahahahah. He BLUSHED.
And TEO LINGLI kept on going on about how i had to get HER permission first IF I wanted to DATE ZR.

Hahahah. I can't believe ms chan ACTUALLY SAID THAT.
And ZR actually BLUSHED.
I've never seen him blush before.
Hahaha. Imagine how funny it was.
*Drifts off to imagine*

Yawn. Oh boy, am i tired. Still lacking sleep from Perth trip.
I hope I don't dream about what happened at blackbox.

It'll be a disaster XD

Nighty-night.

P.S. CHEM PT SUCKS!
AND SO DOES EVERYTHING ELSE (:


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IM BACK FROM PERTH! :D

It was fun.
Sorry, Mariechong. Didn't manage to find you the present. And I hardly bought anything for myself, okay.

Won't post about it until the photos come out on the website.

Till then,
Happy waiting.

If I could be sweet
I know I've been a real bad girl
I didn't mean for you to get hurt
Forever, we can make it better
Tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?
The sweet escape

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Wednesday, April 4, 2007

I'm happy today.

- John praised me for my performance in training this afternoon. He said i finally grew up. Hooray.
- I can finally start packing for my Perth trip
- Cheryl Lim bought me a large lollipop!
- I have to go now -.-

BYE.

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Monday, April 2, 2007

TODAY ROCKED.

Yup, today totally rocked like hell.

First of all, today's set was quite nice. As in, I haven't done that much backstroke since I first joined COE. Weird, you may think. But it's the truth. I've been training freestyle all this while, basically. It's time I moved on to another stroke (:

Next, sports fest was a success. Kinda, anyway. Erm, Mass Dance was very successful, despite the fact that the sec ones had to rehearse for a million times before the actual thing. And I had to run the 8x50m track relay 'cos Tarbet couldn't find anyone to run it. I was the 3rd runner, and i think 4 out of the 8 people chosen to run were from my class. One was a sec three, and the rest were other sec ones who couldn't run at all (no offence meant). I mean, Tarbet was leading until the 5th runner, 'cos the first runner was the sec 3, and the 2nd till the 5th runner were the people in my class.

Then those ignorant sec ones (God knows who) who thought they could run fast ruined the whole thing.

Tarbet got 3rd in the end. Out of 3. We were leading at first! >:[

Anyway, sports fest ended at around 5, and Amanda khoo, Rachel, Sakeenah, Xinyi and I headed over to the pool to change out of school uniform. We met Ivy and after changing, we crossed the bridge and we hanged around for a while before entering the cinema to watch MR BEAN'S HOLIDAY.

Omg. It totally rocked my socks.

The whole thing was super duper funny, right from the start, to the climax, to the resolution. It was well-planned, really. And it was a really nice movie, wasn't it Ivy? :D

My favourite part was the 'scooter' part. OMG it was damned funny. Like, HA. HA. HA.

Peeps out there! Watch it during your free time.

Okay. I've gotta keep on pestering Zhen Ren to send me songs. Blog again another day.

CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT (:

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Sunday, April 1, 2007

HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!


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welcome


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