Today was a normal day. Didn't do anything out of the ordinary.

Anyway, the main purpose of this post is to note down my thoughts for the day. Today I've had quite a few memorable thoughts that I felt should be recorded down somewhere so that I won't forget it.

I was in the shower and I recalled the Alyssa I was a few years ago, probably 3-4 years ago. I was still relatively young.. 10-11 years old. Those years were the peak of my swimming career. I knew it was because I never gave up. Be it training or competition, I always gave it my all. It didn't matter what the set was. 5x100, or 10x100, or even 20x100, I would go all out. When I think of it now, I don't even remember why I did that. It's like it just came naturally to me. During those years, I never once thought of giving up halfway. No matter how tired I was, I always pushed on. Always stayed strong.

I wonder where that Alyssa went.

The Alyssa now (which is the current me posting this post) somehow has lost her fighting spirit. I don't know why I'm like this now. But it's like once I know something isn't worth working hard for, I automatically stop working hard for it. If I kept trying and trying and trying but still don't get anything out of it, I give up. That's what's natural to me now. Put an obstacle in front of me and I'll just walk away instead of trying to make it through. I can't help but wonder HOW I could have never given up in the past.

I finally came up with a conclusion.

As we grow older, we learn. In fact, that's what's growing up is all about. We learn more math, english, chinese, science. We even learn new subjects like geography and history. Apart from school-related learning, we also learn how to be responsible, be more disciplined and whatnot. So, basically, learning helps you to move forward in life. Everyone likes to learn new skills.

And me? Well, I've learnt how to give up.

Tag replies!
Justin: Yep I've read the update and seen the pictures. Hahah glad you guys had a good time (:

Jem: Aww gee, thanks! :D I know the cap is duper cute. How could you not watch Step Up 1?! D: You HAVE to okay? And cheer up! I know what it's like to be like you. I'm always here. And I miss the days where we would stay up late on the com to talk to each other (: Missing you always!

Amandakhoo: HMPH FINE BE THAT WAYYYY! BLEAH ><

Claireteng: Who's who!? Mas Selamat? Hahahahahaha it's a secret ;D

Mas Selamat: Yo man, nope I haven't. Why do you reckon I should?

Coolest: RUNNING IS GOOD but tiring! My legs are dead and wobbly! I can't even walk down the steps properly now -.- I should've never stopped running in the first place!

Liying: LOL sorry my bad. I forgot you wanted a REAL secret admirer, not a fake one. AND YES STEP UP 2 ROCKS :D
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