I'm starting to get tired.

Tired of all this shit.
Tired of training hard.
Tired of putting in 200% effort all the time.
Tired of trying, and trying.

Because i know, that i'm never going to get anything outta it.

I'm feeling very stressed right now.
No, I won't share it with you.
You won't understand, that's for sure.

I don't need your fake sympathy.

I'm feeling really bad as it is already.
I could do without feeling worse.

Why is it so hard for other people to understand (in this case, other people refers to my classmates) that i do not have as much time as them to do homework?

and the worst thing is, they say that the workload is really heavy.

SHOULDN'T I GO AND COMMIT SUICIDE THEN?

If this is already a burden to you guys (my classmates) already,

THEN WHAT ABOUT ME?
Have you ever cared about my feelings?

Have you ever thought that saying all those negative things make me feel all the more stressed?
AARGHHH!

Don't lie to me, i know you have NEVER thought about that.

I'm already doing very badly for swimming already.
And i don't want to find out that i'm lagging behind in school work too.

I blame myself for not being able to handle the stress.
I mean, i should've seen it coming.
I should have seen it coming a long time ago.

i should have seen it when i first gave my commitment to COE.
to swimming 10 times a week.
to sacrificing tv, games, movies and alot of other entertainment.

i'm trying.
i'm trying really hard.

And, to speak the truth,
I AM EFFIN PISSED OFF WITH YOU PEOPLE!

You guys finish EVERY SINGLE DETAIL of homework ALL THE TIME.
And if you don't,
And i mean,
you don't finish ONE question,
JUST ONE QUESTION,

You go nuts! You go "OMG! I didn't do one question! How? Sure die! OMG OMG!"

And i stare at you, thinking, "I didn't have time to even do worksheet, let alone that question."

And you know how BAD it feels?
To think that you actually had that teeny weeny bit of hope that you could cope with swimming and studies?
and by this i mean have good grades.

Sometimes i can't stand it.
Most of the time i really can't stand it.
All the time i'm trying to stand it.
Never am i able to stand it.

Go the distance
I have often dreamed,
of a far off place
Where a hero’s welcome,
would be waiting for me

Where the crowds will cheer,
when they see my face
And a voice keeps saying,
this is where I’m meant to be

I’ll be there someday,
I can go the distance
I will find my way,
if I can be strong
I know ev’ry mile,
will be worth my while

When I go the distance,
I’ll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road,
to embrace my fate
Though that road may wander,
it will lead me to you

And a thousand years,
would be worth the wait
It might take a lifetime,
but somehow I’ll see it through

And I won’t look back,
I can go the distance
And I’ll stay on track,
no, I won’t accept defeat
It’s an uphill slope,
but I won’t lose hope

Till I go the distance,
and my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero’s strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star,
I will go the distance
I will search the world,
I will face its’ harms

I don’t care how far,
I can go the distance
Till I find my hero’s welcome,
waiting in your arms

I will search the world,
I will face it’s harms
Till I find my hero’s welcome,
waiting in your arms
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