• I was in the first heat of the first event of the first day
• Warm up was horrible - Couldn't even swim the 4x50 on 40secs properly
• Dived horribly. Swam a 12.9secs for 25m sprint when my training PB was 12.8secs
• Turn went wrong. Too far from the wall.
• Underwater kick didn't get me anywhere.
• No time to rest. Changed to my comp suit then had to report immediately
• First 50m of my 100m free was too slow - 31.45secs
• Second lap was bad too - 33 secs
• Overall timing sucked - 1.05.09
• Timing was 2secs off PB
• Came in third last out of the 30 something swimmers in that event.
• Cried like shit.

There. What could be better than that?
Today's probably the worst day of my life.

John talked to me.
"You have a body that all swimmers would kill for, and you're bright. Just a little effort, and a little heart, and you'll be on the top of the blocks. That's how talented you are."

Sighs. Time to reflect on what I've been doing for training.
It's time to change.
The real test is picking yourself up after you fall.
Damn, it's harder than chemistry exams. But I'mma try. I ain't gonna swim without giving it a damn shot.

And of course, thank you, for being there for me.